Albert,
3 months have passed that distance literally separates us from seeing each other. I miss you so bad. And I was hurt yesterday when you said that you almost forgot me. You already forgot the scent of my perfume. I don't want you to forget even the scent of my hair. You even slept last night without saying "i love you". I cried at the thought of that and even until now I'm crying remembering yesterday. I am bothered and I don't want this to happen.
I'm glad being with this Masters' program. I know this is a blessing. This is for us. Please don't give up. I'm just away for just a year. After this, we will be happy being together again and you will see me anytime you want. We even have plans of getting married next year, right? Just hold on. I know that this is hard for you and you're having difficulties in adapting our situation.
I'm sorry if at times, I misinterpret you or if I talk amiss judging you and say offensive words. I did not mean that. I'm just upset with your responses and you even sound judgmental at times which I don't like. I'm sorry.
I'm missing and wanting you so bad right now. I wish you are with me travelling through this MRT and LRT, travelling through buses and jeepneys exhausted from the traffic, figuring out which way to go, buying these new things, being with these new places, going to different malls,etc. How I wish you are here. How I pray that someday we can do this together in this big and new city for us. I miss laughing with you. I miss having dinner with you, walking with you, leaning in your arms, holding your arms and hands, listening to your jokes while looking at your face mimicking. I miss your arms around me. I miss you breathing so close to me. I miss those hands that caress me. I miss everything in you. I miss you.
Being with you in Baguio was an awesome experience. It was a nice place and my experiences there was beautiful because of you. I just thought that being with you in that place was impossible but you made it real. You made my dream come true. And I was so surprised that you still remember my literal dream that the man I will marry is the one riding with me in a blue bus in long long hours of journey. It was indeed you that my dream when I was a teenager is trying to portray - the man of my dreams. Hehehe. I'm not thinking about it anymore but you refreshed that memory. Hehehe. SO funny yet so surprising. We really rode a blue bus to Baguio and to Manila - Genesis and Partas - and we traveled for a total of 16hours back and forth. Am I right? I know it's you. Hehehe.
Honestly, I prayed to Heavenly Father before committing to this relationship. I'm glad that you are a man who remains steadfast against all these circumstances and trials. I'm so much blessed that you are my answered prayer. And when you broke up with me months ago, I prayed to Heavenly Father again and I'm still glad and blessed that you are still my answered prayer. I know it's you. You are a great great blessing to me. I still don't know what I've done so good and so best that God has given me this great great blessing. God has given me you.
Thank you for being so strong and standing with conviction to stay and love me no matter what. You see good things in me that others cannot. You treat me like a treasured pearl that no one can afford to loose. You accept everything in me and assure to me all the time that I am special. You love me and you live your life in the bounds of my love also.
I love you and you are special to me. I hope you know that. You are my life and my answered prayer. Like a pearl or diamond, I cannot afford to loose you too. And I want you to know that I'm committed to stay with you no matter what. I will stand firm for this relationship and for you for the rest of our eternity. I am determined to do everything just to be your partner even in life after death. I cannot see my life living without you but I simply see my life living with you until I grow old and die and even in my next life.
I love you very much.
Natdem
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