Time is really fast. I remember this day perfectly as if it was yesterday. I remember that i was awaken by a call during this time exactly 3 am, hearing a laughing almost sneering voice on the other line , and some female voices. During that moment, i knew a promised was broken, but i maintained a calm response asking where she might be. And then I woke up early that morning, and went to see her in one of the malls. Then i saw her with her other friend, and my fears were confirmed that day. I was heartbroken, but its tough to show that to people when youre in a hot seat. hehe Following that night I remember I had the most embarassing scene of my life. I thought about a million things that night, and I have kneeled so many times that i did not realize the sun was already up. And even though how many times i ask, i would always end up with the same answer.

I thought i was going to spend my whole year feeling like that. Feeling unsure and confused. Feeling that i have lost all over again. I thought i was going to get used to disappointment, and i did not know how far my patience can extend. I have resolved that if i was going to be with her , I can never turn back and finish just what i have started until theres no more hint of reason to continue. I was scared, disappointed, and felt betrayed.

One year has passed since then. And everything has changed. The fears that i had before were replaced by love. The disappointment was overcame with surprises and , i have never felt more secured. Just as when i was about to accept her as who she was, I have realized then as she has shown me that she was never that kind of person.

If onle shes here now, i would want to tell her, that i am so grateful for the love she has given me. The truth is, I have already resolved to accept her including the possibility that we will never last. I have always accepted that even from the start. Because i had told myself, that id rather be hurt for 6 months, than to have never been happy my whole entire life. I am happy when im with her. She doesnt even have to do anything. Just looking a her is enough and i have remained that way until now.

Looking back, the pains that i had to suffer were nothing compared to the happiness i get in return today. I may have been hurt, and i will not forget that. Instead i remember those times as one of the reasons why I loved her this way. Because of that i have tested myself with how far can i go with her, or how much can i give or love her. Those event are like the hard ugly stones that are mixed with cement to form a bridge. Even if they look unappealing, they are the ones which make the bridge strong and adamant.

I love her, even up to this time. I love her more today but the truth is, she probably loves me more , and with that i am more than thankful.