its the third month since i got home. I think im totally losing it. Im a wasted RM, im a useless one. I havent lived any single principle that i used to teach. It frustrates me and depresses me to a hard extent.
Im losing all of my plans, and i think i never even started one. Im so tired and i just want to quit sometimes. It feels like i just wore my old shirts when i got home, and falling to the same pits that has trapped me before i thought i had the place all over. Now i am all over the place.
I had a chat with cel, hes different now. Hes as almost too busy even to talk to me. Maybe because i have been left out with everything new, and since im not in their depth as law students, that made me probably someone less interesting. While all the time back in the days, it felt really different. Ssomehow i can understand. Its like im caught between where i used to fit in, and where i cant fit in. And both of them has abandoned me. I am aimless.
Dan crashed yesterday. He has this cool motorcycle, and now its a bit disarranged.
Im just totally tired. I need help. Im at the brink of hopelessness. or maybe i already fell.
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