MARCH 2, 2012

2;00 am

Dear Natdem,

Im writing this down because i cant sleep thinking about things this morning. I took you to the airport because you have to go to manila for your masteral. I am so proud of you. I feel like the luckiest guy alive to be with you. As i walk towards the exit of the airport, passing along people along that steep slope to climb my foot heading towards the huge gray metal gates, I began feeling so small against the world, and people, cars, and their lives starting the day. I thought about my own self and im the poorest man without you. I feel ashamed of myself as I have literally nothing but dole-outs and my little savings with me. I think about schooling and my friends who have passed the bar, and i felt confused and lost that after you were gone i asked myself loudly , "what now?". I have no idea where to go, not only about getting home and where to get a jeep, but also with my life. I stand in the corner of the road and I resolve my predicament. I looked back at myself and realized that I have nothing to be complaining about but only to be grateful  Im so thankful that you love me so much. Your love is so strong that even just by looking at your eyes, the soul in me is calmed. By the nearness of you my worries disappear. By your smile I am willing to live a miserable life. Natdem, today as I write this down I have  nothing in my life but you. Thank you for loving me. For seeing the good in me when I even hate how i have become. I may not be the best person in the world for you. I may not even become a lawyer or a successful person. I may have not own a thing or become somebody. My dreams would not even become real. I may have even failed the most things in my life. But its okay, I am fine because i have you. You are my greatest accomplishment. You are my dream that has come true. I could say tonight that i have loved living my life only because you have been in it. Thank you and im sorry for the imperfections and shortness of myself. I love you.

Albert