august 28 , 2009

I made this one for you. Its almost the same feeling i get every second youre not with me. Almost exactly the same feeling but just a million times short. I love you.

time has all acquiescently stole thee
its sad waves come surging into my shore
so swift, dragging what remained left for me
leaving a sorrowful tide that i bore

the days are overcome by its billows
fast, the brine of emptiness fills my hour
so painful that my adamant heart knows
it finally divided asunder

oh how i vainly wish time would have stop
and its weltering seas could have calm down
so still, that my hands could hold just a drop
so slow, my eyes could cover you around

so long, that time means nothing save a word
so much, that time is nothing in this world

dear violet,

Im gonna use that name so i can remember how it felt again when i first came to know you. I can vividly remember the first day I met you. Right after i enrolled for law school, i came driving down to the mall to meet y ou. My heart pounding so hard that i wasnt able to think straight or know exactly how should i act. Then I saw you, wearing a green shirt, with earphones hanging in front of the shirt, black striped pants, white slippers, and the heaviest spotted sling bag. I smiled at you, and you looked back at me, and i knew that you have recognized me. You were buying a bottle of water and gulped one down before finally sitting. And then almost instinctively, I grabbed your hand and I knew then that it was you.

I want you to know this before we end up fighting again, and somehow lose track of the real reason why we have each other. I want you to know that you are my best decision in this life. I want you to know that even before you said yes to me, that first day was my resolve. I want you to know that i have resolved from that day until now, that i will only make you happy. Seeing you happy makes me happy. And theres no feeling in this world that i would wanna be repeated endlessly, than the feeling i feel everytime you are beside me.

I love you maam, and even though at times that i am so hard to deal with, and I could drain your patience, I know the reason why you still hold on because you know that all the things i said are true beyond words. And you have seen them, and continue seeing them up to now.

It has come to me, that since the day i have seen you from a pic, i have literally think about you on every single day. I have made so many mistakes, and sometimes i feel that theres no end to all of this. The only thing that keeps me in one piece is the thought that at the end of the day i would hear your voice, and at the end of the month i get to see you once. And at the end of the cold year , the warmth that your love has given me. And the thought i have every night , that one day in this life, I will be able to hold for eternity the very same hand i held the day i met you.

I love you,
albert