28july2008

and so there you are
and here i was
what took you long, what took you far
to have you near me at last

i thought you knew where i stood
i waved and waved but you never see
i shouted all my muster, my good
you failed still to hear my plea

it hurt so much for me to see
before, another hand has walked you home
it pains so much so needlessly
you even have to tear for that butthole

you shouldve known id sell my soul
just so youd never cry again
i couldve eaten shrimps and all
just so your hunger would never begin

you shouldve known ill soak myself
so that youll never be wet
i couldve bought sadness itself
so that youll never be upset

you shouldve known i could be sickly
so youre biogesic would never grin
i couldve suffered all the leprosy
and that youll never have to scratch your skin

i coulve sang all the bad tunes
just so youd sound great
i couldve been your tricycle driver
and that youd never be late

i couldve eaten all the fats
so that youll never gain a pound
i woulve bought a glue that lasts
so that youll always stick around

you shouldve known how waiting is
a painful cross to bear
you shouldve known this is a bliss
to see you face so near

and now here i am , and here you are
i couldnt ask for more
and though now, were just buildings afar
yet i will still love you even more.

maam

its the 12th of july at nearing 3 am in the morning. In a few hours from now i would be taking my first law exam, which is in the civil code. Im supposed to be studying at the moment, but this is by far the longest time i have studied in my whole lifetime in one subject. I had to be familiar with 51 Articles since memorizing them in toto will be unbelievably unattainable. Im trying to get a break so my brain break asunder.
In a while ill be calling her again. She just had a fever, and i hope by tomorow shell be fine with the paracetamols we bought.i cant stop thinking about her. Everyday i would think about her even if i tried all my best not to.

Tonight as i left her to herself with a descending fever, i thought of how beautiful she was leaning back against that wooden chair. With a wet hankerchief on her forehead, she was closing her eyes, and her hair partially covered her face. Even though she was literally chilling, and sick, i thought she was the prettiest lady in the whole world. And how lucky i was just to sit beside her as i fold one of my photocopies to fan her. I thought of how many times i have seen her, and adored her, and relentlessly think of her.

And despite of the countless times i think of her, i think I will never get tired of looking at her.