27March2011 830pm

I wanna die. I literally mean it. I got nothing, I don't have any. I wanna end all of this. I wish I have the guts of killing myself. Im worthles, Im pointles. I got nothing to do and nowhere to go. I just wanna die. I want my heart to stop pumping so I could not feel this pain anymore. I wish I could buy a pain reliever for this. I wanna die. And Im going crazy now. I wish my hour has come.

27 March 2011 10am. It's over.

It's over. You finally decide. I'm sorry for everything. I just loved you so much. So much that u can hardly breathe. I'm sorry,Albert. I'm sorry for everythng. But I don't have risons 2 stay. You don't want me anymore. It's all my fault. I'm sorry. I'm not helping you. I can't even ease your pain like what the other woman does. I'm sorry,Albert. I'm so sorry. I can't be her. I'm sorry. Good bye. Please remember me,the first time we met. This is so painful. I love you so much. I'm sorry. Good bye. Today,my heart stops beating and I don't wanna breathe the air. Living now is so pointless. I wanna die. And if I do, I'd die loving you.

Love,
Natdem

March 27, 2011 3am

8s 3am. I still cant sleep. I wish i could go back to the day we 1st met. I miss you so much,albert. Iloveyou