10september2008

Its been 9 months since i got home. The other day i went to the mall and they started playing christmas songs, which i think is too premature. I rememberd my last christmas in the mission. When everyone is having feasts in their tables, i was eating 2 packs of noodles for my christmas day. hehe I loved my mission, its one of the biggest part of my life.
Today was a bad day. I was refused from the job i was applying and made her really upset. If i can only turn the hands of the darn clocks, i shouldve went home early. THe past weeks have been really exhausting. I had to drive home everyday, and i missed a lot of study time, and soon ill be paying it with some red marks i guess.

Its also the day that Ive been with her for 4 months now. It doesnt feel like four months. Its as if i am with her all of my life, and at the same time the brevity of time cannot exact the lost time that i havent known her yet.

The last four months have been the best 4 months of my life. The more i know her, the more i like her. THe more I see her, the prettier she gets. THe more i listen to her, the more i am amazed with her. The more i love her, the deeper i am falling for her.

I do not know what will happen for the next four months, or the next four years, or the next four decades, oR for my four next lives. All i know is that i could not even spend the next four seconds without her in my life. How could I, if she is my life.

maam...

17th august

its august again. i remember this month last year, I was in urdaneta and it was raining hard that time. We had to cross a flood just to get to this investigator who has managed perfectly to keep us on our toes by consistently avoiding us. I was there wet, taking my shoes off , lifting them with both hands while crossing that 3 foot flood on barefoot. I remember it was actually my birthday that time, and i had a fever in the night. It was an upsetting day . Well, all my birthdays are upsetting. Its just another mark to remind you that youre growing old and so much wasted time is happening in your life.

I had my birthday just a week ago. I turned 24 and old. hehe I also had a fever that night. But i wasnt upset. I think it was my best birthday. I had the best gift in the world that time. I have her.