maam...

17th august

its august again. i remember this month last year, I was in urdaneta and it was raining hard that time. We had to cross a flood just to get to this investigator who has managed perfectly to keep us on our toes by consistently avoiding us. I was there wet, taking my shoes off , lifting them with both hands while crossing that 3 foot flood on barefoot. I remember it was actually my birthday that time, and i had a fever in the night. It was an upsetting day . Well, all my birthdays are upsetting. Its just another mark to remind you that youre growing old and so much wasted time is happening in your life.

I had my birthday just a week ago. I turned 24 and old. hehe I also had a fever that night. But i wasnt upset. I think it was my best birthday. I had the best gift in the world that time. I have her.

28july2008

and so there you are
and here i was
what took you long, what took you far
to have you near me at last

i thought you knew where i stood
i waved and waved but you never see
i shouted all my muster, my good
you failed still to hear my plea

it hurt so much for me to see
before, another hand has walked you home
it pains so much so needlessly
you even have to tear for that butthole

you shouldve known id sell my soul
just so youd never cry again
i couldve eaten shrimps and all
just so your hunger would never begin

you shouldve known ill soak myself
so that youll never be wet
i couldve bought sadness itself
so that youll never be upset

you shouldve known i could be sickly
so youre biogesic would never grin
i couldve suffered all the leprosy
and that youll never have to scratch your skin

i coulve sang all the bad tunes
just so youd sound great
i couldve been your tricycle driver
and that youd never be late

i couldve eaten all the fats
so that youll never gain a pound
i woulve bought a glue that lasts
so that youll always stick around

you shouldve known how waiting is
a painful cross to bear
you shouldve known this is a bliss
to see you face so near

and now here i am , and here you are
i couldnt ask for more
and though now, were just buildings afar
yet i will still love you even more.